Don't Touch Me-- You'll Get This....
June 21, 2006 06:22 AM

Eh life is not really that good right now. I am suuuper tired and suuuper down with life. I have two past dreams, one about Jordan and one about Blake. I have yet to tell Josh about them and I doubt I will. Josh doesn't even know who the hell Blake is! He doesn't like Jordan and not to mention he'd be suuuuper pissed at me... I don't know if he'd still be with me or not. Anyway about my dreams::
 
Jordan
 
It was his birthday and we were hanging out in his driveway and I was invited to stay the night. I asked him at his house if we could get back together and I had to follow him to this doorknob shop to know the answer, and while there to find the answer I had to look under the doorknobs. It was really weird but in the end he said no, and I actually started crying.. wtf is wrong with me?
 
Blake

My dream of Blake made me really happy, we were hanging out with a bunch of emo/scene kids and we were having soo much fun. We were hanging all over each other and we were acting as we were going out and I felt soo happy and I was really happy. I even hated the fact that I woke up and realized that happiness wasn't real. And what was even worse was that I woke up next to Josh. ehhh Mine and Josh's anniversary is in a day (the 22nd) and Chris is coming down that night. It'll be pretty cool I know Dez is really happy and I am soo happy for her. I have to help her clean cause she is freaking out about the hosue and everything. God I really missed this journal! *hugs journal*

Wanna [jiggabooey]
June 15, 2006 03:57 AM

Definately time for a new entry  =]It's been a while but I figured why not, I tried other journal sites but never really stuck with them so my wonderful life has been left umdocumented. Well here is what has happened recently..
I turned sixteen, finally! Feels like I have been waiting forever! In a week will be mine and Josh's eight months together yay! I miss him right now, we can't see each other tonight because we both have a lot of getting ready to do for tomorrow. I'm so tired right now but before I go to bed I have to clean out the bathtub which I probably should be doing now.. but eh. Why I have to clean the bathtub is because we did our dishes in there...Ew... I know but a pipe in our kitchen broke so we really don't have any other choice with the dishes just sitting there smelling like vomit from a fat kid full of sugar. My back hurts so bad from bending over the tub but atleast I got a bit of a work out. I'm trying to lose some weight anyhow.
About Josh's graduation tomorrow, I am wearing this really pretty dress my dad bought me and which I will probably put pictures of up later. I want to take a bunch of pictures of my baby on his graduation. Though I doubt I'll be able to stay up as long as he does, he wants to go and hang out with his friends anyway.
Well thats pretty much it, its summer so I'll probably be writing more since I just wrote those paragraphs in like two mins or less. See, I just needed to come back home to my original journal! Well much love bitches and hoes.
Wanna x

eh Fack Yer Mum
February 21, 2006 02:47 AM

Quit being fucking retarded with your blogs its annoying
Its hella late on a Monday night.. didn't have school today because of Presidents Day.. they actually did something right didnt they? Days off are always wonderful.
I spent my whole weekend with Delmont, I love him so much, in a matter of two days will be our 4 months together,... I honestly couldnt be happier!
Okay I really need to go to bed, probably update my profile and get off , later!

Of All The Gin Joints in All The World
February 18, 2006 12:04 PM

So its a wonderful Saturday morning in my little world, the birds are chirping, sun is shining, oh but not too bright now Mr. Sun!
*smack* Back into reality.
My friggin mom didn't take us to CA to get our stuff.. instead she slept all day....all day. When I become a parent, I pray to God I don't loose my responsibility.
I've been promoting the site and waiting for Delmont to get up, because I miss him so dearly yah know? He's the love of my life I kinda can't help it!

Emo Kids x
February 01, 2006 04:40 PM

To all of you who hate Emo Kids... I need to speak in their defense.



I am typically what you would call "Emo" by image. I have the dyke spike hair cut (which I am growing out), I listen to a lot of "emo" and "screamo" music... and that is pretty much were the comparisons end. I used to be a cutter, used to be. I stopped cutting before I ever became "emo" , and most cutters I know, aren't even emo anyway.



Although, let me state, this defense is not for the ones doing it for the fad && will act and dress differently in sixth months, this is about those kids who go through the shit they do.



Before you start bitching, let me address:

-There are kids who have it far worse

-Kids who do have it bad don't become "emo fags"

((those are the main phrases, if you would like me to address any others please leave a comment :D))



Yes, there are kids who have it really effin bad. Ones with their homes destroyed, ones who have their country && home being attacked. Yes, those are terrible, horrible things happening to them. But what about the kid whose parents fight everday? They fight infront of their little sister who is too young to really grasp the concept of what is going on and is left shaking uncontrollably? What about the kid who has to watch that happen? What about the kids who get beat by their parents? What about the kids who watch their parents shoot up && pass out on the couch with a cigarette still burning in their hand? Yes some kids have it bad... some have it worse. It doesn't matter because they shouldn't have to go through what they do.



No, not all kids that have it bad become "emo fags" kids deal with things differently. That is just their way, and hey maybe they even like the style.



Again let me repeat, this defense is for the kids who go through the suffering... not just the fags pretending to be cool..

Build God, Then We'll Talk
January 25, 2006 11:47 AM

So I am sitting here with Keanna.. its almost nine in the morining and I didn't go to school today. I called Delmont and told him I wasn't going so he didn't go either, he's gonna call me later when he wakes up again and we're gonna try and see each other. I have to clean today since I stayed home and all. I cleaned the living room yesterday and that wasn't too hard. Chores won't be too bad.. rather do chores than be at school right now. I'm not missing anything anyway.



I miss Delmont a lot right now. I can't wait to see him. Probably end up going over his house so we can play Dark Alliance. That's gonna be so much fun. I wanna go to the Lotus again sometime too. But one thing at a time. Might have him come over... that or when I am done cleaning I'll have a parent drive me over there so I can see him. We are both having quite a lazy day.



Dez is sleeping in the room right now, I slept with her last night cause I haven't in forever. She is so pretty when she sleeps. Well I guess thats all for now and I'll write again soon!

I need to keep you like this in my life....
January 22, 2006 02:43 AM

I must be retarded. I was out having fun with my friends and then I just missed Delmont. I started crying so tough && got home and I called him, I cried so hard that I threw up. It's been like almost two hours since and I still miss him so bad. I really need him in my life, or I'd like die...



He is my heart and soul.

K I don't make films, but if I did they'd have a samurai!
January 20, 2006 05:47 PM

Exams suck... truly. As far as I know I passed all of them, that doesn't mean I passed the classes though. I might pass painting, but I think Geometry is all gone... I failed a semester. I just suck in math... I'm as bad in math as des is singing (lol).



I was suprised I could take the exams today... It's hard to focus... I really miss Adam and want to talk to him.. I need to know if he's okay and I need to know what I can do to make this better... and I need to know..





I'm waiting for Delmont to come home from work... working with my mom of course. I want him to be here already, but I don't wanna stay here. I hate my home, I can't wait until me and Delmont get our own place. Then I will be so much happier, away from all of this bullshit I go through.

January 20, 2006 05:43 PM

fuck! good god damn

I hate my mom && barbie sometimes I really effin do!

I miss Delmont, I can't wait until we have our own place.. Ireally can't

4 Day Weekend Bitches!
January 16, 2006 03:55 PM

My four day weekend was awesome! I spend everyday with Delmont and he took me to a resturant called the Lotus && omg it was sooo good. I had the lemon chicken with egg flour soup. and I've been craving that soup ever since! IT's like my new favorite food!



Me and my dad talked a lot && broke plans a lot. Twice now we were suppose to go out and see each other but we both kinda bailed. I feel bad but there is always next weekend and I will definately go then!



Delmont asked me to go with him to visit his mom... I said I'd go, but I'm just really worried. Meeting his dad was kinda creepy enough and having dinner with them put me on edge. But if I have Delmont there I will be completely fine :D



Well I got stuff to do... which means chores. :(